Feeling like you never knew them, relationship feels like a “dream” or like it never happened

I can’t tell if I’m healing or dissociating or both but I no longer feel heartbroken – just this pervasive sense of feeling completely alienated and weirded out by the whole situation. When I say I feel like I never knew who they were, I don’t even mean it in a melodramatic way – I truly do not feel like I ever knew this person at all. Whoever they were with me was a facade and I realize that now, and I especially do not recognize the way they’ve acted since we broke up. They are a completely different person towards me now, and that’s what made me realize that whoever I thought I loved wasn’t real to begin with. It makes the relationship itself feel like a mirage, that even if it did happen it didn’t mean anything or matter that much. I’ve imagined them standing in front of me and feeling in my bones that I would be able to look at them and wholeheartedly tell them that I don’t even know who they are. It’s so hard to articulate the exact feeling but it feels like I got erased and I was wondering if anyone else had felt this. via /r/NarcissisticAbuse https://ift.tt/sZe9g3w